Life With Baby
Things have been pretty busy in the K household! As most of you know, my baby is now 9.5 months! When did that happen?! She is cuter than ever and learning something new every day!
At 9 months she is crawling, cruising very smoothly (walking along furniture) , she is pinching (not my favorite milestone lol), she just started waving, is learning kissy noises, says "Baba" meaning "Dada"and is getting more opinionated by the day.
She's a very serious and thoughtful baby and at times a little hard to please, especially if we are out in public. I know this may sound strange but I sometimes get a sense she is wiser beyond her time here on Earth and feel she can see right into my soul. Something about the way she stares and when you make eye contact there's a certain connection. Like she knows. As to what she knows, I'm not certain. It's the only way I can describe these moments.
She is a people watcher just like her momma. She will stare anyone down but as soon as they approach and try to touch her feet or tickle her cheeks she doesn't hesitate to let them know her bubble is being popped (ok I don't do that..I just people-watch lol). She likes to come to you. In her own time she warms up..it can be 30 seconds...it can be 3 hours. I'm hoping her daddy's outgoing and fearless personality will rub off on her. I personally grew up very shy which triggered anxiety. I still feel that anxiety to this day in my life and I hate it.
Matt leaves for another float very soon and I am dreading it (as usual). We were hoping she would take at least a few steps for him to see in person, but it looks like that will have to be put on hold until the homecoming. I'll have to make sure to have some handy dandy recording device around me at all times so I can share some of the milestones with him while he is away. This float is a shorter one than the last (yay!) but they still stink.
The New Biz
With the new year I started my own business venture in photography!! Matt likes to refer to it as a hobby to keep it light and fun and not overwhelm me with the seriousness of the word "business". It is a business that I do plan on taking very seriously, but I like the idea of reminding myself this is something I am supposed to keep loving. So far, so good!
I named it Fairy Dust Photography because I was inspired by a particular photo I took of Savannah in her Cinderella dress for Halloween. I was going back and forth for a couple months between my name, her name, a combination of our names and after editing that photo of her it just came to me. It reminded me of the quote, "All it takes is faith, trust, and a little bit of pixie dust" from Peter Pan. Everyone who knows me knows that I love Disney and love fairytales. When I think "fairytales" I envision soft, dusty colors. I see whimsy. I see light and airy. I also see the other side of the story which is the dark and dramatic side. I see bold. I see heavy. Fairy Dust Photography probably sounds like a "strictly baby" genre, and it may turn out that that is the majority of my client base, but I offer couples, families, boudoir, watch-me-grows, maternity and homecomings. My dream goal is to photograph a birth! (That will all depend on Matt being home in case I have to leave in the middle of the night). If you haven't already, please feel free to check my Facebook page!
Fairy Dust Photography FB page
I also created a web page (I know, so official! :D) Fairy Dust Photography website
The decision to start a business was definitely a scary one for me. It's such a vulnerable position for me to be in: having people judge you and your work. I always think, "what if they hate their photos?" and "did I do enough?". Matt being my biggest supporter says that's a great mindset to have because it means I will always strive to do better. How can that be a bad thing? lol He's right. I just don't want it to affect what I think I am worth, photographer-wise. Being shy I have the slight anxiety of meeting new people. With years of working in the service industry I've gotten pretty decent at forcing myself to be outgoing (which the real inside Me is) from the moment I shake hands and introduce myself. I am hoping with time and gaining more confidence in my work and experience the rest will follow suit. But for now, the New- Kid-In-The-Class feeling aside, I love it. I love learning about my camera. I love meeting new people and their families. I love getting to spend time in beautiful locations. I love post session editing. Slowly but surely I am booking more clients and I am so excited for what this year has to bring! (hopefully more adorable props HAHA!) :)
I named it Fairy Dust Photography because I was inspired by a particular photo I took of Savannah in her Cinderella dress for Halloween. I was going back and forth for a couple months between my name, her name, a combination of our names and after editing that photo of her it just came to me. It reminded me of the quote, "All it takes is faith, trust, and a little bit of pixie dust" from Peter Pan. Everyone who knows me knows that I love Disney and love fairytales. When I think "fairytales" I envision soft, dusty colors. I see whimsy. I see light and airy. I also see the other side of the story which is the dark and dramatic side. I see bold. I see heavy. Fairy Dust Photography probably sounds like a "strictly baby" genre, and it may turn out that that is the majority of my client base, but I offer couples, families, boudoir, watch-me-grows, maternity and homecomings. My dream goal is to photograph a birth! (That will all depend on Matt being home in case I have to leave in the middle of the night). If you haven't already, please feel free to check my Facebook page!
Fairy Dust Photography FB page
I also created a web page (I know, so official! :D) Fairy Dust Photography website
The decision to start a business was definitely a scary one for me. It's such a vulnerable position for me to be in: having people judge you and your work. I always think, "what if they hate their photos?" and "did I do enough?". Matt being my biggest supporter says that's a great mindset to have because it means I will always strive to do better. How can that be a bad thing? lol He's right. I just don't want it to affect what I think I am worth, photographer-wise. Being shy I have the slight anxiety of meeting new people. With years of working in the service industry I've gotten pretty decent at forcing myself to be outgoing (which the real inside Me is) from the moment I shake hands and introduce myself. I am hoping with time and gaining more confidence in my work and experience the rest will follow suit. But for now, the New- Kid-In-The-Class feeling aside, I love it. I love learning about my camera. I love meeting new people and their families. I love getting to spend time in beautiful locations. I love post session editing. Slowly but surely I am booking more clients and I am so excited for what this year has to bring! (hopefully more adorable props HAHA!) :)
With Matt being gone I am stuck with the challenge of what to do with Savannah. On the weekends he has been amazing at pushing me out the door to do sessions so he can also have his one-on-one time with his baby. With him away over the next 2 months it's going to be a little harder setting something up because I don't want to burden my friends with watching my sometimes hard to please child. I know everything will work out because I do have friends that have stepped forward and offer to help out, but it's still hard for me to accept help.
Ok, I know I probably sound like a Negative Nancy...but I just wanted to get my fears and insecurities out of the way and off my mind. Here are some extra pluses to end this on a happy and confident note! :
- I am finally doing something for myself. While I love being a SAHM to Savannah, I think it's good for me to take that time to do something that I love. To do something that can make me feel like Lauren (along with being Mommy and Wife) .
-Hopes of helping set a good work ethic example for Sav
- A little extra money never hurts
- Said extra money will support my obsession with baby props lol ;)
- Doing this forces me to get out and explore the island more!
How is everyone starting off their new year? Still staying true to your resolutions?! :D
Any advice/tips on starting a business, juggling being mom/wife/individual/photographer? Any and all is appreciated!
(ps. Sorry if this post seems a little scattered..I've had to start and stop numerous times due to a very curious kiddo in the room!)
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