Dreams of "One Line or Two?"

Remember my post from a while back talking about my reoccurring pregnancy dreams? Well..they're baaaack. This time, though, I'm not dreaming about having that belly or that it's "time", but it's all about the stick. In one week I have had 4 dreams revolving around me peeing on the stick, seeing the plus sign, and being ecstatic, yet freaking out. Freaking out because Matt is right outside in the next room and I want to tell him the news in a special way so my dilemma was how to compose myself to where I don't give it away! There are times I pee on three sticks just to make sure! It's so real that when I wake up to Matt getting out of bed for work I have to ask him if it really happened or not (obviously I'm still in a daze with sleepiness haha). 


In that last post about the dreams I was questioning what it all meant. Was I ready? Was I scared? Was it symbolic for new responsibility coming into my life?  I'm pretty sure, now, that I am having these because I am ready.  Waiting for that news. Excited. Nervous.  I stopped taking the pill so, of course, the thought of that possibility is always in the back of my mind.

Speaking of going off the pill...what a trip. For years and years I have been ingesting those extra hormones and I never realized what a difference it made in everyday life. For instance, food I like and dislike. Since going off of it, I find myself craving more juice, broccoli and mangoes (to name a few). I'm not into soda as much as I used to be (hell froze over). My mood swings are different, especially when a certain "aunt" visits. Matt has even mentioned noticing a difference, which he claims he finds very amusing lol. What else...oh, that "aunts" visits are awful. I've never experience cramps but now? Holy heck. So, all in all, it's interesting! Very interesting noticing my interest and now dis-interest in many foods.  Just thought I'd put that out there!